Moving Forward.

Recently, i've been restraining myself from moving forward because I care about other people's feelings too much. What will my friends think if I take this step? How will they feel about it? It doesn't even have to be a huge step. It can be something so little, and I will still worry about the way other people will be affected by it. Today, I opened my eyes and really thought about it. I found myself in tears several times as I thought about it. I'm not my greatest self right now and it's all because I simply depend and care about everyone else's feelings too much. I'm not happiest because i'm doing absolutely nothing for myself and my future.

As I was on the verge of tears today, the one thing that kept coming back was, "Stop letting people control your life." And it's the truth. I was crying because I didn't feel in control of my own decisions and I was so over it because i've been so blind to it for months. Once I took a step back and thought about it, I made a decision that I would now be in control. I'm already such an independent person and rely on myself for most things, but I worry about other people too much.

The point of me writing this is to tell you all that people's opinions don't matter if you feel happy. The way they feel about you and/or the situation won't matter at all in the long run. Seriously! No one's opinions matter if you're happy. If you're not happy, like I previously was, maybe you're letting people get to you too much, again, like I was. It's your life to live. It's your future that you have to work for. No one else. I've stepped back in and taken control of my life. I have a voice and i'm going to use it. I'm not going to be pushed around any longer by anyone telling me I can't do this or I can't do that. I am my own person! And so are you! Focus on the future and don't let other people hold you back or bring you down, because the reality is, their opinions don't matter.